The New Busy

April 6, 2013 Annette Daily Inspiration

I am used to ‘busy’ being cleaning, cooking, laundry, and running errands.and some responsibilities at church…but the new ‘busy’?  Lots of doctor appointments. Through the years my busy seasons have changed {like everyone’s} to different things from working, to having a house full of children, to working part time and just having a few children at home, but my main focus has always been my family and caring for our home.  Now, I think I need to learn the “Mary/Martha’ lesson and let the house take a back seat.

I want to share something.  I am not strong.  I am a weak mess.  2 Corinthians 12:9 & 10 sums me up perfectly.  “And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee:  for my strength is made perfect in weakness.  Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.  Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproachs, innecessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ’s sake:  for when I am weak, then am I strong.”  I can stew for a few hours over worries concerning doctor visits, getting this port ‘installed’ and all kinds of stuff. Then I remember, I don’t have to do this…..I read my Bible and pray and what do you know……peace. Now, I am honestly not to the point where I am ‘taking pleasure’ in this infirmitiy…..but maybe that doesn’t necessarily mean a ‘happy’ pleasure but learning about joy that can come.  Also, I am so so sooo grateful for all of the support and encouragement and prayers I have had from my family {down to every cousin} and my friends and neighbors.  Thank you all so much.

I need to learn to be a little more techno savvy so that I make updates more often….I type a post and ‘loose’ it ‘somehwere’….then I get all frustrated and don’t type again.  So.  I hope I figure out what I am doing wrong.

Today I had the echo-cardiograham…..just standard procedure I guess before chemo.  I am always trying to ‘read’ the person performing what ever test or procedure I am having done……do they see something alarming?  Goodness.  Monday I have an appointment with the surgeon.  It’s the consultation to set up the out-patient surgery to ‘install’ the port.  I had to make a decision between a pic-line and a port, and for me, I think a port is best.  One night when I couldn’t sleep and was worrying over everything, Steve asked me to name the things that I was afraid of…..and needles was one of them.  So, hopefully this will be the best option.  Last year before I had an old shoulder injury repaired {wrecked on my skateboard 30 some years ago} I had an arthroscopy done, and during it I looked up and saw a reflection of what looked like a gigantic needle going into my shoulder and unfortunately I did one of the two things I do when I see a needle going in me {other than checking blood sugar or getting a shot, for some odd reason those don’t bother me, well, much}  Anyway….I laughed, and couldn’t stop, I know that they figured out that I was crazy.  The other thing I do is get nauseous.  I guess all of this will get me over my needle phobia.  Tuesday I have the PET Scan.  Which means on Monday the only carbs I can eat {according to the paper from the doctor} are broccoli, peas and green beans. I can eat all the protein and drink all the water I want. I can’t be around pregnant women or children for 6 hours afterwards, so no “Family Supper Night” that Tuesday night for sure, with two pregnant mamma’s and little Eddie.  The PET Scan and the bone marrow biopsy, which will be Wednesday, are what they will use to stage the cancer.  My doctor said that they are hopeful that it is stage 1 or 2 because of my blood work being good and my lack of symptoms, but in my mind I feel like I need to be prepared for stage 3 or 4.  He said either can be cured, just longer chemo for stage 3 or 4.  I sure hope for 1 or 2, but want to be prepared for 3 or 4.  Now I have been told that the bone marrow biopsy hurts, a lot, and to use the breathing technique I used during childbirth {yes all 5 children were natural, the least needles the better, remember…..}  At least I shouldn’t be able to see those needles going in during the bone marrow biopsy…..that would not be a good time to laugh with hysteria.  And I am not the only person in my family who does this.  One of James’ broken arms, or one of the times when he broke his arm, the bone was sticking up and he laughed non stop, for a few hours.  Anyway, I will be glad to have all of this done so I can get started on chemo…..and get lymphoma kicked.

On another note…..Jess {Aunt Jess} is flying up from Florida in a couple of weeks and we are going to decorate the nursery at Stephanie’s house.  I love to paint and decorate, and even though I feel fine now I know I may not be feeling to hunkydorrie then, but we will still enjoy working on a project together.  I think it is going to be a circus nursery.

2 Responses to “The New Busy”

  • Jordan says:

    Hi! I’ve been thinking of you lately. Praying for you & your family & your medicial team. After your pet scan & bone marrow biopsy, how long will it take to get all the results?
    That is going to be hard allowing the house to take a back seat, don’t be ashamed to hire someone. Whille Scott has been traveling and life has been chaotic, I broke down and hired someone to clean the house, it felt like such a weight lifted. It will provide such relief.

    • Annette says:

      Hopefully I will have the reseults of the echo-cardiogram from Saturday and today’s PET Scan tomorrow morning when I have the bone marrow biopsy done at my doctor’s office. The pathology for that takes 5 days.

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